There was once a boy named Kenan Weiton.
He was a new student and every girl who attended Vales Primary had tried to catch his attention.
Unfortunately for them, he was shy back then. An insecure and timid 9 year old.
Turns out, he was in my first class. And he sat next to me, the ordinary brunette who wore pigtales and crooked teeth.
"Hi, I'm Bridget." I smiled, holding out my hand.
"I - I'm Kenan." He stuttered, looking down.
I smiled,"That's a cool name, nobody here has it."
He returned the smile, "I've never known a Bridget before."
I giggled, "There's a first in everything right?"
Since then we became the best of friends, we were inseparable.
We never kept anything from each other. Or so he thought.
I was in love with him. So deeply in love with my best friend, and even though I knew nothing about love at that age, one thing I knew was certain was my love for him.
But then when we were 12, he left.
Just left. Without a warning or a goodbye. Left all his books at school, left all his belongings and left.
I remember it so clearly. It was movie night and I was walking to his house. I was planning on confessing my love for him that day. Instead I was met with silence.
His scent hit me hard and I felt hot tears threatening to escape. As I walked to his desk I saw a photo on the floor and that's when I finally burst into tears.
The photo meant everything to the both of us. It was much more important than a friendship bracelet.
His arms were over my shoulders and we both looked at the camera, grinning like fools. At the bottom of the image, read 'Best Friends - K&B'
A tear escaped as I snatched the photo and put it in my pocket.
"Damn you Kenan. Damn you to absolute hell." With those last words, I let the darkness consume me.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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