My Reason for Living

my life is perfect. I'm head cheerleader,gorgeous, and have a seemingly perfect homelife. but I'm the only one who knows that all that is a lie. what goes on behind the scenes is far from perfect. everyday I feel like a piece of my mind is shattering apart into little pieces, and soon I'm just going to- break. and the only thing keeping me sane is Zane Taylor. my very best friend. I talk to him about everything and he's the only one who sees behind my "perfect" mask. the only problem is that.. I'm completely in love with him. but he only wants to be friends and he has made that perfectly clear. I need Zane though, because without him to talk to how would I get through everyday as life gets harder and harder to live with. without him, what's my reason for living?