It has not been easy and I have shed many tears Wishing I could just fast forward all of these years I look at an innocent brown eyed little angel My gaze becomes empty and hard like a stranger My heart becomes heavy and my eye wants to cry And my soul it turns black and curses to die And the emotions, they keep running through my veins Squirming and convulsing, individual little brains Ohhh! Ohh! The agony of these games! And my mind it flusters! It moves back and forth And I wonder why I beat at a dead horse And I wonder how could this be ? How I could be blind when I am able to see And I wonder how a heart could fill up with both love and hate And I wonder if I need saving or is it already too late