Mistake or Not a Mistake?

Suri is my name. I'm hiding from what I am and trying to find what I previously was. I prefer to call myself as a monster. As I'm trying to figure things out there's a real biotch who needs to pay. She's the one who ruined my entire life. But at least I have my best friend who's always there for me and I know I can count of him; his name is Logan. We've been best friends forever but can our relationship changed now that I'm lost within my thoughts about myself? Do I love him like a brother or something else?