Happily Numb

What happens when a person is broken so many times that healing is nearly impossible? Not a lot. Not at all.
Actually, the opposite it more likely to be true. Numbness takes over, swipes someone away. I can tell you this because I've been there. I've been bent until I broke, been to hell and back again. Sometimes I wonder if I got out alive.
Don't worry now - this is not a sad story. Not at all. It is merely an emotional one.
A true one.

I'm still living. I'm just less alive.

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As the days go by, my past is escaping me. Don't dwell on the past is something many of us hear daily, but is it really that bad?
I fear I can not look at the future if I have not sealed my past. So this is me sealing my past.