" my body an illusion, my age beyond count, the memories I've collected revolve around you. The only person that seemed to compute, that the only real reason I left was for you. All I ever did was for you and I expected you to see that, but in those moments those last fleeting moments when I thought I knew you, even when you aren't here, I was proved wrong. You made me believe I was special and confided in me what to others you did not. I believed I didn't need protecting, even from you. When it was time for you to sacrifice your life for that one life, which once seemed insignificant, I believed you kept no secrets from me, but I was wrong, and now I see that you only meant to protect me, even if it meant making me believe you had no secrets kept from me, but oh the pain, the sadness that abides in my soul, my essence is glazed by your presence, now that you are gone, though still here, the void is slightly less empty, for the thing that matters most now, is a learning breathing child, at moments his presence invades my own and reminds me of the thing I lost, but not just me, everyone of us, and I am sweeped into a hole of the pain I still carry with your memory."
-Kiyomi
"That memory"
A poem based onthe show Steven Universe
Created by Rebecca Sugar
Cartoon Network
In Pearl's pov
CONTENT CONTAINS :
SELF HARM
SUICIDE ATTEMPTS
SUICIDAL THOUGHTS
MENTAL ILLNESS
SEXUAL CONTENT
DRUG USE
ABUSE
GORE
VIOLENCE
&
STRONG LANGUAGE
IF YOU'RE EASILY TRIGGERED OR UNCOMFORTABLE, DO NOT READ!!
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" What was that for? "
" For you to shut up "
" What? "
" It's not what it looks like "
" Ouch "
" Sorry "
" What was that for? "
" I don't know "
In that moment, is where everything started to change my life.
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I tried my best to hide it. I thought I was going to be dead, never underestimate him. He's got shit you've never seen before.
I lost my father because of him, my sister's and brother's life are in my hands. I have to be careful, I can't loose them, without them, how can I live?
Until he came into my life, I feel different from the inside.
His eyes meets mine, it's like a fire was lit inside a dark room and it became brighter, my world that was upside down is turning the right way up, I think I love him, but the problem is.
I'm using him while I Sigh in plain sight.
Who is this 'he'?, What will 'he' think when 'he' finds out this person is using 'him'?, Will it end happily?, Or another plot twist that has been in my other books?
Read this book to know.
FYI, Ein is human in this story.
[ Completed ]
Started : 3rd September 2019.
Finished : 3rd December 2019.
[ Highest Ranking : #27 in Aphmau ]
[ #2 in Ein ]
[ #1 in Ein X Reader ]
[ #2 in Sigh ]
Disclaimers : I do not own ANY of the characters only the ideas, they belong to a youtuber called Aphmau, I don't own any of the songs either or the pictures, except Y/n, it belongs to you. There are a few characters that I OWN.
My OC :
Xelora Kiselyov
Catherine Fox
Ash Lee Mandrell
Natalie Rosetta Mandrell
Coraline Alycia Jones
Mariko Akiyama