Relatable to teens

I'm trying....I'm trying so hard but....I....just can't find myself really happy like I used to be all I feel now is that I'm ugly and at the bottom of everyone's list,
the feeling of loneliness....the feeling of sadness overwhelms my mind I try and get away from it from reading and fantasying a life that is so from the truth but when I turn back to reality I can't stop crying cause I know it's not going to be the why I wish....and all these emotional feelings brings me back to reality and all those wonderful things are just only a fancy in my head.