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Suicidal

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This is the story of an abused teenage girl, Maddie. Her need to die has become overwhelming and she is trying to find a way to help herself before she does something she may regret. The story is told from her point of view as she recalls all that has happened to her. Maybe telling her story will help her, maybe not. This isn't just any other sob story. This is more realistic. You may even find yourself comparing your life to Maddie's while reading this story.

Disclosure: I wrote this as a 13-year-old and the writing is definitely not up to my current standards, but I feel as though changing what I have already written would take away from the emotion I put into this story at 13 years old. If you'd like an updated and more well-written version, please read my other story entitled "Remembering". 

TW/CW: domestic violence, child abuse, sexual assault, depression, anxiety, suicidal ideationAll Rights Reserved

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Shattered by Divalicious24

Everyone has a story to tell. Some are more cheerful than others. Some can make you feel joy and others can bring you to your knees... 18 year old October's story is one of those stories that will bring you to your knees. Not only does she have to deal with constant abuse from her parents and self harm, but she also has to deal with an abusive relationship that pushes her to her breaking point. However, despite all the hardships she has faced (voices in her head, insomnia, a miscarriage, rape, suicidal thoughts, and etc) she eventually finds the one thing she was so desperately longing for. Happiness. However, before you can learn about her happiness, you have to journey into her version of hell... This is her story... NOTE: This book contains strong adult content and some graphical rape scenes that may be disturbing to some readers. NOTE: Slow updates

DROP OUT by PerfectlyUnperfect27

IM CURRENTLY RE WRITING THIS STORY: If you would like to read this version please read at your own risk and my new version will be up very soon, thank you! Alexandra Forest watched her parents get murdered at the age of 7. Now years have passed, she dropped out of school, going house to house in the foster system, and always looking for a new 'high' to escape her reality. That is until she's caught shop lifting, she's forced into a home and forced to go to school only to be stopped by a certain group of boys. Sebastian Peters father left for another woman, soon after his father abandonment to his family, Sebastian's older sister, Danielle, overdosed. Leaving him to take care of his mentally ill mother. School thinks he's some bad boy with no secrets and a perfect life. Wrong. He has secret and he's not a bad boy, (maybe a bit rebellious at times) and he certainly doesn't have a perfect life. And maybe, just maybe if Alex lets him into her dark world he can light it up. ****** I really hope you guys like this new story and remember to vote and comment. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED TO ME @PerfectlyUnperfect27

Dear Diary:The untold story of reality by AuthorAnnite-

{ON HOLD} •Even the devil was an angel once• A little girl who barely got attention from her parents,who grew up in a toxic environment... At teenage the hunger of attention,trauma,led her to develop serious agression issue,began self harming believing it was her fault to be born,also nearly had a sexual assault,the school life, family issues.......id she wanted that life? Was it her fault to be born? Was it her fault to suffer the reality? Was it her fault to be born ugly or have acne? Was it her fault to be a girl? "MY EVERYDAY PRAYER WAS TO BE DEAD,AND STILL PRAY THAT NOW" (A REAL LIFE STORY OF SOMEONE I KNOW PERSONALLY)

Dark Life by M4ximoff_n3ver_d1e

Elisabeth x y/n <3 Hi everyone ,i never done this before ,i just start to wrote this now,and just because i can't sleep,so i tought :" why don't i write a story ?!! and here i am !! yay :) ok so this story talk about y/n that have a terrible life, an abusive dad , have to deal with panick attacks , anxiety and self harm,but one day everything change,because y/n meet "her" ( Elisabeth Olsen) that will help y/n with everything. in this story y/n would use she/her,but feel free to change It if you're not comfortable ok?! Y/n is 18 and Elisabeth is 20 ( the story line isn't following the reality ) One last thing: english Is not my original language ,so if i made mistakes ,Sorry :,) -Finished !!- book complete !! ✅

Cold Water by adaline_meadows

[BWWM] I was only twelve years old when the world turned cold. The day my mom died in that car accident, I felt like someone had dumped a bucket of ice water over my heart. My dad, who had always been my hero, suddenly became a stranger, filled with rage and blame. He couldn't see that I was hurting, too; he only saw me as a reminder of his loss. The accusations cut deep. He said it was my fault for being there, for not doing something to save her. For being the reason she was in the car in the first place. In the years that followed, things only got worse. The abuse started gradually-a harsh word here, a shove there-but it escalated, leaving scars that I carried long after the physical pain faded. I was drowning in my own despair, struggling to keep my head above water while my father's anger raged like a storm around me. I only had a break from his anger when I started living with Aunt Dina-my mom's older sister. Well, that was because she found me nearly dead on my bed after I took a dozen pills. I was tired of living. I had hit rock bottom. The harsh whispers that followed me around and the stares at school. I pretended not to notice, like it didn't bother me. But it did. I was alone. Then came Athalia, a ray of sunshine cutting through my darkness. With her, I felt something I hadn't felt in years-happiness. She became my light through the darkness and my lifeline. ••••••••••• ● Warnings ⚠️ ~ Mention of suicide ~ Anxiety attacks ~ Rape attempt ~ Mention of self-harm ~ Depression

Falling Apart by 1_Will_3

*TRIGGER WARNING: DEALS WITH DEPRESSION, SELF HARM AND SUICIDE* Amber is sixteen years old and to sugarcoat it... She hasn't had the best upbringing. She would love a different life, one where she can see her mother again and not be stuck with her abusive father. A life where she doesn't get taunted and hit and torn apart by everyone who she has ever seen. But she would never swap, she doesn't want anyone to endure the pain she's gone through. So instead, she tries to get rid of it... Again. But much to her disbelief, she is saved by the people she would least expect. She learns secrets about them that no one else knows. She feels included. Cared for. And dare I say it... She felt loved. For once in her life, she felt truly happy to be alive. But just when Amber felt safe, her life was flipped upside down and her past came back to haunt her just when she least expected it... (Sorry, I suck at descriptions, don't let it put you off) Ranking: #64 in Awareness #15 in Mental Health Awareness #73 in saddness

Fading Away ✅ by kia_spens18

Overthinking makes the voices in your head imminent and you begin to listen to them. You listen to them because they are the only thing there,the only thing telling you how it is. So you believe what they say; believe you're not worth the good things, believe you deserve the negative things that happen to you, believe that you could have stopped a bad incident from happening and believe it was your fault And that belief grows, it grows unto depressed thoughts and feelings and you start sinking until you become a shadow of your former self *********** Alexa sees life as a gloomy abyss of darkness Yes,she moved to a new city in a new state but it didn't change the mistake she did. Her past which was filled with colour is a contrast to her present bleak life The voices speak for her,her nightmares are a reminder and her attacks are her punishments Or so... she believes Blaze doesn't think his life is anything than his version of perfect He has a girlfriend,he is surrounded by two friends he would do anything for and his grades are always...perfect Until Alexa barges into his version of a perfect life and unravels the imperfections. But she's not the only one unraveling imperfections He sees the fear in her eyes,he feels a sense of protection over her and one question clouds his mind Who is Alexa Magnus and what happened to her? They'll both need help, care, confrontations from the past, patience, friendship and as they navigate through this roller coaster, they'll find discoveries that'll leave them shocked at the end. Trigger warning: Incidents of self harm is mentioned. Cover by @saphire_skye ***********************************************

The Overshared And Underappreciated Mind Of A Hopeless Romantic by thrillsgum

Writing has always been a secret indulgence. It's something I keep to myself most days and it will continue to be something I share with very few people. Bound in these flimsy plastic rings is a brief rundown of me. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Nothing in here is terribly out of the ordinary for a teen girl who grew up before she was supposed to. A girl whose life was never hers to live. A lot of the time, I never know what's going on. I find it helpful to write down what I don't understand to try and make sense of the world around me. Writing these pieces has helped me find peace in my life. This class has proven more cathartic than I thought. That being said, there are some topics that can be sensitive here. I've starred the titles that could be triggering for some in the table of contents. If you are bothered by mentions of: abuse, self harm, or talks about mental health and illnesses, I suggest avoiding the starred titles. Otherwise, I hope you enjoy the ooey-gooey and heartfelt pieces I have pumped out of my system

If You Love Me by slybatspidow

"If you love me, you won't leave me." Jessie has believed those words from her boyfriend, Josh, since senior year of high school. She loves him and doesn't want to leave him. Not even when he shouts at her and hits her. Jessie's best friend, Kolleen, can't stand seeing her in that situation. With a bit of convincing - and the worst beating she'd ever received - Jessie agrees to move into an apartment with Kolleen. But not long after, Jessie is scared the worst of her nightmares will soon become a reality. Josh goes missing, and suddenly Jessie would swear she's being followed. One night changes everything, and one person soon changes Jessie's outlook. A responding officer from that fateful night begins to seek her out, at first claiming it's part of his job. As she spends time with her new friend outside of his job, she starts realizing that her feelings are evolving. After being abused for over a year, Jessie is terrified she's falling in love. What's even more terrifying is that he might be, too. She isn't ready for love. Not yet. She makes up her mind that if he is falling, and if he does love her, he'll wait for her to be ready, and if she loves him, she won't let herself hurt him. Can the words that used to cage her in really be the key to her freedom? --- Featured On: @NA: Take a seat and let it be | Mature Content and 18+ reading list @NA: You deserve the world | Mental Health reading list Ambys Top Picks New Adult 2023

Logan by braindeadwriter06

*TW* Contains topics and scenes of sexual assault, self-harm, abuse.* "You know you loved every second of it," I can feel the tears welling up as well as the anger building up within me. I stare at him for a while before I have to turn away from his hungry gaze. "Look I just came here to tell you that I forgive you for what you did back in Cali and I'll take you back," "You forgive me?" I yell. "I did nothing to you. You raped me! You fucking raped me! You have no right to come here and tell me that. You. Forgive. Me. You traumatized me. What you did to me tore me up inside and was eating away at me until I tried to kill myself. And when I told people they didn't believe me. I had to listen to so many people talk about how great a guy you were and how I clearly just regretted sleeping with you. You are a monster. You made me hate myself for something that was never my fault. You have caused me so much pain and suffering," I pause to take a deep breath. "So you don't get to come here to my school and tell me you forgive me. You don't get to make me feel bad about coming forward. The only thing I regret is ever thinking you were a good person." _____________________________________________ Logan Young is a 16-year-old girl about to start her senior year in a brand new town. The past year has been tough and her family moved to give her a fresh start. Her life before the move had been hard and she had been spiraling. She quickly makes new friends and even enemies. She builds up walls to protect herself. But what happens when an unlikely person helps her to tear down her walls and heal. Will she be able to survive in this new place and keep her secrets intact?

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Shattered

Everyone has a story to tell. Some are more cheerful than others. Some can make you feel joy and others can bring you to your knees... 18 year old October's story is one of those stories that will bring you to your knees. Not only does she have to deal with constant abuse from her parents and self harm, but she also has to deal with an abusive relationship that pushes her to her breaking point. However, despite all the hardships she has faced (voices in her head, insomnia, a miscarriage, rape, suicidal thoughts, and etc) she eventually finds the one thing she was so desperately longing for. Happiness. However, before you can learn about her happiness, you have to journey into her version of hell... This is her story... NOTE: This book contains strong adult content and some graphical rape scenes that may be disturbing to some readers. NOTE: Slow updates