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Suicidal

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Time 57m

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This is the story of an abused teenage girl, Maddie. Her need to die has become overwhelming and she is trying to find a way to help herself before she does something she may regret. The story is told from her point of view as she recalls all that has happened to her. Maybe telling her story will help her, maybe not. This isn't just any other sob story. This is more realistic. You may even find yourself comparing your life to Maddie's while reading this story.

Disclosure: I wrote this as a 13-year-old and the writing is definitely not up to my current standards, but I feel as though changing what I have already written would take away from the emotion I put into this story at 13 years old. If you'd like an updated and more well-written version, please read my other story entitled "Remembering". 

TW/CW: domestic violence, child abuse, sexual assault, depression, anxiety, suicidal ideationAll Rights Reserved

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Days of my life by angrycamel

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No One Sees.

Calla thought a new town meant a new start. But Pine Ridge has a way of turning hope into something cruel. Her mom's smiles are fake. Her stepdad's affection is unsettling. Behind closed doors, her home hides more than it shows. At school, the line between friend and enemy blurs fast, and as whispers turn to rumors, and kindness turns to inhumanity, Calla's grip on control begins to slip. Secrets surface. Lies spread. And the people around her? They watch, helpless-or indifferent. Raw. Real. Unforgiving. No One Sees is a dark coming-of-age story about trauma, girlhood, and the pain people look away from. TRIGGER WARNING This story contains themes and depictions of trauma, bullying, emotional abuse, sexual harassment, mental illness, and suicide. It explores the dark and painful realities of how cruelty, neglect, and silence can impact young people. Please take care of yourself while reading - your well-being matters more than finishing the story. If you are struggling or experiencing thoughts of self-harm or suicide, you are not alone. Help is available: United States: 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline - Call or text 988 (24/7, free, and confidential) United Kingdom: Samaritans - Call 116 123 (free, 24/7) International: Find hotlines worldwide here - findahelpline.com, which connects you to local, free, and confidential mental health helplines around the globe. If any part of this story feels too heavy, it's okay to step away or reach out for support.