Appearance vs. Reality // Shawn Mendes fanfiction
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13:06, 24th March 2014.
That time will forever be ingrained into my mind.
I feel lucky, but I carry a lot. I don't talk much about myself because it can never change the past. I think of myself as rather private and I like that. But life is hard for everyone, and you just have to get on with it. One day, your life might change forever... and that day might just be the best day of your life.
I look at my watch. It's 02:16, 17th March 2015. Another night of being unable to sleep. I overthink a lot, and knowing how close it was to being a year since I first met Shawn brought sadness to light. The past year had been tough but I'd repeat every single second of it to relive the amazing memories we shared.
He changed my life. He made me a better person. He helped me through the dark and rough times. I can't thank him enough.
I loved him, and thinking back to the day we parted continued to break my heart into "a thousand pieces," or so they say.
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