Me and my broken heart

Aubrey Bender is in love. That's not the problem, obviously. But she have been in love before and that experience destroyed her so she's not gonna let herself thrive in something that could possibly bring that pain ever again but the thing is he never leaves even though she always pushes him away and it's killing her that she may be hurting him but she can't lose herself again and she just finally learned how to numb her pain. He could never find out her ways. And by the way, his name John Butler.