What is my life if it's not praising you?

For weeks now, I have been having these dry spells of no spoken words, even when I TRY to write, it just seems so forced, and I can't force my spoken words, they all have to be led by the spirit.

But instead I decided that I would be open with you about my desires/struggles currently through commentary.

My life is bittersweet, sweet in the sense I am desiring Christ more than ever, spending more time in his word and He's revealing so much but its bitter in the sense that, the normality of life, like what most will deem as normal at my age 23, all these factors are slipping away and I am noticing it but at times, my flesh will realise that I am not normal anymore and dwell on it, but then the holy spirit will remind me that I need to rejoice that I have gained Christ.

The honest truth is, living for Christ, means you will lose it all, at times friends, normal social life, things that the world may deem as a good life have been redefined in my life, because I know my life have been bought with a cost, its not my own.

By challenges right now, and desires, is to live like Christ. Like the way he loves, I want to love like that. The wisdom he uses in every situation, I want to embrace that wisdom and walk in it. So I decided to read through luke, and ever scripture or teaching that Christ emphasis I want to share with you as well as how I will be practical about it. Feel free to correct me where you see error and faults. I