Hell to Heaven

I've been to a place this dark before, nearly made the biggest mistake. But what was the mistake? Ever cutting myself in the first place, or not cutting deep enough. I am so sorry. I'm so sorry that I messed everything up. It's not your fault. I'm not going to cut In the first time in months. I don't even care about filling the gap by hurting myself and eating a little more than usual, the gaps too wide now. I tried so hard to be someone everybody would like. But no matter how hard I tried I will always be the same, pointless, old blob. I'll always hurt people. I am so sorry. I just hate myself more than I could ever love anything.