lost, alive, or me?

when I was born my mother was so happy. the doctor said I was perfectly healthy, I was loved by all... or so I thought.
I have brown hair with natural bronze highlights and hazel eyes, my eyes are not the same color every day. when I was 3 my mother the Luna had to go on a trip to America to visit her human friend that had been attacked by rogues, she thought they where just wolves. I could not go because I had start my Alpha training, I was to be the first female alpha. I was determined to show no weakness towards anyone, I was born to shift into my wolf form. most were wolfs had to wait to shift until they where 12 but I could shift at a month old. 3 weeks had passed and my mother was due back in a week, the pack doctor was arguing with my father the alpha. "Nick you are abusing her! the only training that is going on is how she can heal faster!" dr. Charlie yelled. "she is weak Charlie" my father said deadly calm. I was able to talk telepathically and even ignore my fathers mind link I told dr. Charlie, 'dr. Charlie I'm not weak am I?'.....'no Alexis you are strong, your father just doesn't want to be the first pack to have a female alpha.' I opened the link to my father,'daddy why can't I be the first female alpha? isn't it supposed to be awesome to become alpha?' I felt my wolf stir and growl at his words. 'not when it's you, not a female'......... what was to happen now?