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philophobia ~ muke af

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5sos abuse alcoholism angst clemmings clifford emotional fanfiction fluff instability luke mental michael muke romance sexual substance triggering triggerwarning underage

{philophobia - the fear of falling in love}
{agliophobia - the fear of being hurt}

luke works at walmart by day and sits in bars at night. he drags himself through his mundane occupation and then drinks away the past - and he definitely doesn't stare at that one boy who's sometimes there with the drummer from that one band. 

michael just wants to get away, but ashton always makes him have a 'social drink'. he'd rather be dying his hair or slicing his wrists or playing guitar or anywhere but here - except when they go to this one bar, and he sees this one boy who stares at him a lot.

...or the one where michael's really tired of everything and luke's just lonely and hurt, calum pays luke's phone bills, and ashton pays michael's therapy bills...

WARNING: this work may contain implied or explicit homosexual acts, substance abuse, sexual abuse, emotional abuse, mental issues such as depression, and self-harm. Please do not read if these subjects might be of a triggering nature. 

DISCLAIMER: yeah, I don't own 5SOS, but I'm pretty sure you already knew that.

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5sos abuse alcoholism angst clemmings clifford emotional fanfiction fluff instability luke mental michael muke romance sexual substance triggering triggerwarning underage

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