This poem is written by David Huey
edited by: Destinee Wilson
If I turned around and walked away, would you notice I'm gone,
Would you even care?
When you look at me, do you see the smile on my face,
Or do you see the tears I fight to hold inside?
Do you see a strong, willful woman I portray,
Or the scared little girl who never quite goes away?
If I broke down and lost all control,
Would you know how to handle me,
Would you hold me 'til I stop shaking,
Kiss away all of my tears?
Would you know how to lift me up
From a place far below recognition?
You see me as strong and caring
But I'm so much more.
I'm sad,
I'm lonely,
I'm unpredictable,
I'm broken,
I'm irrational,
I'm complicated.
You say you want me,
But you don't even know.
You see who I let you see,
Who I've always let you see,
But what about the real me,
The everyday me,
The girl who never seems to get anything right
The one who could break down at any given moment
If loving you is wrong.
then is that why sing such a sad song?
I've tried to release this pain in so many different ways;
But writing about you seems to be one of my faves.
I don't understand how I find closure
When I know it only lasts until the poem is over.
Somehow it feels like some sort of imaginary relief to my reality.
As if, the pain I feel only exists until the words are free.
I know how crazy it may seem
Because the heartbreak will always be there;
And I will never un-feel what you've done to me.