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Just to Feel | Complete

CharmaineSimsSmit

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Reads 5,097
Votes 316
Parts 31
Time 3h 13m

CharmaineSimsSmit

Mature

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"I'm broken. Nothing can fix me. I feel so numb. No one understands me. No one understands my life and the sadness I feel all of the time."

Mia Tompson finds herself in the clutches of a destructive addiction as she's trying to come to terms with deep losses, and made to believe that she's 'less than' and 'unworthy'. Taking a gap year, lonely and whilst living on the estate, she finds solace in nature, returning time and time again to her favourite oak tree and the horses' paddock.

"I just want to feel close to something, feel something other than this pain. I want to feel love again."

Will someone come into her life to pull her out of her darkness... showing her just how beautiful and deserving of love she really is?

"No one could ever understand the unspeakable pain I've been through. There's this aching in my heart and pain in my chest that just won't stop. I've tried everything to ease it. Even taking some drastic measures..."

Will she be able to deal with a past, which has cast such a long shadow over her life? New  friendships, mending broken family relationships, and her creative writing might help her
heal... but will she be able to finally slay the dragon?

"I... just... want to... feel..."All Rights Reserved

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