A Look Into My Mind
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Last published Sat, Jul 25, 2015
I hate my face, my body, my lips, the way I sound, the way I take things; I just hate me. All my life, my friends have always said I'm "beautiful" and yet they tell me all of my flaws; my lips are too small, my feet are too wide, my face looks weird, my hair has split ends, they even tell me my breasts are big but they look weird. Why do they want me to know everything that they don't like? I HATE THIS! When will they understand that I don't wanna know what everyone else hates about me? I never have wanted to and I never will. I can't stand this anymore! I mean, I guess it is in huaman nature to look for the imperfections in everything but still, that does not make it okay at all to point them out.
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I was awakened by a buzz, but I don't want to get up, instead I lay still on my bed and about to dream again when I heard a THUD, I flinched at the sound. It's Saturday so I'm not expecting anyone at this early in the morning. I'm not a morning person, I am now annoyed to whoever it is. "Coming!" I yelled and started walking which took me sometime because I literally took my time, don't blame me I'm still sleepy, I opened the door to see a very beautiful woman, she has long wavy hair, thick eyelashes and pink pout lips and lastly... a body to die for. I frowned when I realized a high-school student? I can say because she's wearing a uniform. What is a beautiful high-school girl doing here knocking at my door? I asked mentally. I was about to ask her when she suddenly slipped inside my condo and sit on the couch cozily, I crossed my arms and face her still frowning. "Miss what are you doing here? What do you need?" I asked her curiously. She looked at me and smiled, a smile that can make men drool, but I'm not because I'm still annoyed. "I am your girlfriend" she said sweetly, my eyes widened in shock, I know I'm drunk last night but I don't remember having a girlfriend. I was about to say something when she stood up and face me leaning so much closer that were inches apart. "You wished for me, last night on the internet" oh crap! Now I remember! I was browsing the net when a certain ad captures my attention. "But I wished for a BOYFRIEND! Not a Girlfriend!!?" How do you handle a situation where there's NO REFUND and NO EXCHANGE? Copyright © 2014-2022. Manila, Philippines. All rights reserved.
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