A Thousand Knives
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Last published Tue, Jun 30, 2015
Everyday it feels as though a thousand knives are sent into my back. What happened? Is all I can ask myself. School is a constant battle, eating, walking, thinking, I can't do anything without the darkness engulfing my head. Will it be the ultimate cause of my death? Why would this happen to kind souls such as I?
A thousand Knives by suicide_inferno
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