My thoughts, my struggles, my pain, my hope

I'm 15 and have asperger's syndrome. It was a year ago when I started becoming more aware of my differences and my flaws that I wanted to change and since then I've been fighting like hell to control it, to be normal. Through it all, I've ended up teaching myself some social skills along the way. This is a collection of journal entries I've written since then, containing my thoughts, struggles, pain, hope, and eventually my goal.