Growing up , learning from your mistake , trying to find out why your having weird feelings for a friend and dealing with complicated things life throws at you

Completed Book. Letters written to people or things. Love. Suffering. Self harm. Jealousy. Suicide. God. Sexual abuse. Bullied. Physical Abuse. Death.Friends. Family.

This is my story. My life. Now before you read or turn away, I must warn you my life is anything but normal. Bad luck seems to follow me and everyone I love. Abuse, drugs, alcohol, heartbreak, loss; all of the above. I still don't know how I am here. Dealing with this endless cycle of depression and darkness.

' ...Well here's what's apparent between us. There isn't anything between us! ' That short speech drew a large crowd around us...Now everyone knew what my ugly crying face looked like. Malibu, 'The 21 Miles of Scenic Beauty' There's no place like Malibu. The beach has the most beautiful sunset and a community that brings warmth to your arrival... But away from the coast is a lot going on in one of Malibu's most popular highschools, Grover High. We're going to journey with kids who're new to the highschool environment and they realize that the only way to become stronger is by showing your weaknesses...

"I'm not a relationship type person" "Baby girl I want to change that" A/N- pre written and I will update everyday. Also most likely writing a sequel.

"Because the air you breathe shouldn't hurt." -- Drawn to the power of her cigarette packs, Malibu has become addicted to the sweet smell and taste of each stick. It's become her life and she expected it to stay that way. Until Dean Larson comes along and reminds her that there's always a little sunshine amidst the storm.

you only know you love her when you let her go TW // suicidal thoughts

They say what's in the past keep it in the past but I wanted to know all about my past. It was things that I didn't know and that I wanted and needed to know! But my life turned upside down when my past is exactly what I should have left alone. Now if you ask me how it all began, I don't exactly remember but I know it started when I moved in with my grandma who I haven't met in all my twenty years of living. I have been in and out of foster homes since I can remember, living with families I knew nothing about. Being the outcast and them constantly asking me what's wrong because I simply did not speak. The only thing that kept me sane was my good grades throughout school. I got the satisfaction of doing the one thing that people kept telling me over and over I couldn't do. I stayed to myself and graduated high school with honors, getting a full-ride scholarship to any college of my choice. Of course, by having this accomplishment, it didn't make it any easier for me between my foster families. To them, I became the girl who was better than them. But I didn't care because when I turned twenty I finally got to start making my own choices. This is where I wonder if the first choice I made was the right one. The first choice I made was to go live off-campus with my grandmother during my first semester in college. I ask myself how could I be so stupid? But you will see just how stupid I was. Or was I?