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Diary of a Messed Up Teenager

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Welcome to this book of bitching, rant and pretty insulting things, this is a book of self-understanding, even from the horrible things I said to people, which can make me regret up until today. 

This is the story of my life, things that happen. 

It's literally a diary, as the title implies! 

You can read my bipolar thoughts, feelings and problems involving, love, school and friendship, between other things.

If you feel like you might be having any of the problems contained in here:
    •Stop reading, for your own good.
    •Ask me for help, I'm always here.
    •Say nothing.


Most of this is depressive things, but there are also some parts that involve happy thoughts.

This book contains subjects about: self-harm, suicide, self-hate, depression, etc.

If you don't like any of these do NOT read.

In any way, it's up to you if you want to read!


I don't have an specific day I update, though I normally do at night, but it's just when something happens and I want to write it down. 



Anyway, I hope you enjoy ^*^ <3


"Stupid minds are the ones who walk the simple paths."
           -Unknown

"One something is truly lost, one can never get it back."
           -Ciel Phantomhive

"The darkest places are the ones in which demons hide the most."
           -b.r.g.

"Believe in your strengths, believe."
           -Happy Mask Salesman

#45 in Non-Fiction 07/05/2016

Update April 2017: People change. And I'm doing for good. I'm learning, I'm improving. I finally am finding myself. Don't be afraid to look for you. :)All Rights Reserved

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