polarize // phan
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"the world isn't just black and white, you know."
the year is 1994. philip lester has been brought up with the most religious of ideals, in a highly christian household. he attends church every sunday, says grace at the dinner table nightly, prays as often as possible, and wouldn't ever dream of disobeying his parents.
that is, until, he meets dan howell, his polar opposite.
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