My Dying wishes.
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MatureOngoing11m
Last published Mon, Sep 19, 2016
I can't breath.
I can't feel.
I can't form a sentence.
I'm Numb.
Numb from all the pain that is slowly killing me, tearing my heart into little broken pieces which will never reconnect.
I'm lost.
And slowly Dying.
Today is the day. The day everyone talks about. The day that everything falls apart, all the moments you've enjoyed, die. Nothing is the same.
And will possibly never be.
Today is my day. The day where i'm filled with despair and pain. Today is the day i find out i'm dying and suffering from the one and only bitch, Cancer.
This is my story of how one disease ruined me for the worse and also ruined me for the better. How one disease gave me all the opportunities I thought I never would experience. This is my story of how one disease made my life full of surprises, heartbreaks, love and no regrets.
This is My Dying Wishes.
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