Boy
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Ongoing, First published Jul 08, 2015
I want to die
Go to a place where no other souls lie
I want to die
So I'm away from anyone so I don't have to say goodbye
I want to die
I'll scream on the top of my lungs and come back down with a big sigh 
I want to fucking die somemore
Cut so deep I can't fucking feel the pain anymore 
I want to fucking die
I want to push everyone I ever loved away but then I'll get questions asking why
I want to die in anger
I'll kill my self brutally and hang myself up with a fucking wire hanger
I want to die in pain
Feel why its so fucking hard too breathe because I'm going insane
I want to die in grief
Everyone will say he's  the boy who cried wolf and shake there heads in disbelief 
I want to die in guilt
So I worry and out more pressure than what's been built 
I want to die proud and filled with joy
So everyone can believe that bullshit and never know the story of this depressing boy
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