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eternal darkness of the mind

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Reads 868
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Parts 26

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Dan loves his best friend but when he gathers the courage to tell him, Phil leaves the country, leaving Dan alone and heartbroken. But will Phil ever come back? If he does, how will he react when he sees what changed when he was away ? And was it a mistake to even leave Dan alone ?

t/w: suicide attempt, s/h, swearing

(In editing & hiatus)All Rights Reserved

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