Pastel Panic
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Complete Sat, Jul 11, 201532m
"Because even though I'm living my dream and doing what I love, I'm still that fucked up kid that has no friends, has weird interests, and has anxiety."
Phil Lester is the lead singer of the rock band "Pixel". To his fans he's a confident, sexy, rock god, but in reality Phil suffers from panic attacks that are beginning to ruin his life.
Dan just got tickets to see his favourite band live and is excited to see his secret crush, front man Phil Lester. But he's even more excited when his friend, Chris, somehow gets him backstage.
EPILOGUE ADDED: PIXEL PEACE
(I'm really terrible at writing descriptions, I promise the fic is better than the synopsis! Also there's vivid descriptions of panic attacks in this, just so you know.)
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