I'm tired. I'm tired of falling and losing myself again and again. I'm tired of living. I'm tired of seeing the same shit every day on mirror. I'm tired of myself. I'm completely tired of life. Sometimes I try a lot, I try a lot to live. Yeah, I'm fucking living on this world but I don't feel like I'm living. And that's what makes to feel like it's impossible to live. Sometimes I get up and look at myself in the mirror. Do you want to know ? I see nothing. I just can't see myself anywhere doing something. I don't have any hope left. I'm lost and I feel like a ghost. You probably don't know what did I just tell this you. I'm here to tell you my story. This is me Catharine and my diary.