The death of my life

How is it when people think of suicide others seem to care a little more...but when you feel sad but don't show it they seem not to care at all.
"what's the point in death when it makes every one sad?" they ask, but really what's the point in living? Why do you care more when people think of suicide? It doesn't make sence...
If only you knew her you would understand why I wrote this if she reads this i want to say I love you girl and if you die I die too