Ambivalence

He hit me again today in the face, but it's okay because he said he didn't mean too. He couldn't help it. Why does he have to be so short-tempered? Why can't he see that his attitude hurts me physically, emotionally, and mentally. Everything is going to be perfect because I still love Zach.

Ambivalence - The state of having mixed feelings or contradictory ideas about something or someone.