In My Heart
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I've been at the bottom. I watched people I love, drown in sorrow and regret. I've watched them ease away the pain away with a temporary fix of their drug of choice. When I'm at the bottom, that's what I want to do. I want the pain to go away. I want to start it on fire, and watch it burn. I want to light it up, inhale and forget. I want to drink it until its gone. But in my heart, I know there's always light at the end of the tunnel. I know that my life is worth the fight. So the struggle is what I choose. Most of the time...
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