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All I want to do is scream

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I am a tired, lonely lil bean who has decided it isn't healthy to cry in the bottom of her shower anymore.

This is a diary (of sorts) that I'll vent into whenever I feel like I'm about to burst.

In case anyone reads this (lol yeah right) and is confused by the chapter names, it's the date (mm/dd/yy) followed by the time I start writing (hh:mm) and then am or pm.

I update whenever I feel like I need to get something off my chest, so it's a little irregular. The average is roughly every three days, I think. 

If a chapter starts with 'Still alive', it means I'm acknowledging how long it's been since my last entry.

If you read the last written entry and feel worried about me (for any reason at all), please feel free to send me an email (fionaLb4@gmail.com), and I'll answer within the day. I won't answer any comments on this story, because Wattpad comments are confusing and stupid.

 All of that information was probably unnecessary, but fuck if I'm deleting everything I just typed out.All Rights Reserved

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