I'm Already Torn
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I will never be able to do anything right will I? Lost my best friend, my first boyfriend and now my second. I hate life.....MY life, and I hate people. They just....piss me off. People are constantly asking me 'What bit you in the ass today Ashley?' 'Why so down in the mouth' 'I miss the old you' 'where did my best friend go?'. I'm sick of hearing it. Where am I now? I'm sitting in the rain on a bench all by myself. How did I get here you ask, why am I so thin, why are there marks on my arms? If you really wanna know ill tell you but don't you dare pity me!
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