She's proud of herself, but she won't tell you why. It's been a week since she last even tried. But the voices won't stop, and today they won. Will she go for a razor, or end it all with a gun? After hours of crying and arguing with herself, she gives in and opens the hidden box on the shelf. Overwhelmed with emotions, she selects her blade, oddly delighted with the choice she's made. So once again, she takes the razor to her vein, and without flinching, or feeling no pain. Well, there is pain of course, but it's mistaken for praze. She's lacking in judgement, because the feeling of daze. She sits there emotionless, blood pouring from her wrist. Giving into a feeling she's so long resist. Smile on her face as it spills down her arm, She's caught up in the evil, we all know as self-harm.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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