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Dead or Alive

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Parts 11
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Reads 344
Votes 29
Parts 11
Time 5m

My whole life has been about life and death. I'm always so close to death. But I'm starting to like it now...is that so wrong? I've cheated death so many times, and now I go and look at death in the face and  try to get myself killed. All my friends get mad or feel sad that I do it, but does that stop me? No it doesn't! I keep doing it, but there's only one girl that can stop me from doing it, I love her so much but she doesn't even know she can stop me. I've been hit by cars, shot at, and stabbed almost everywhere on my body. I'm not even sure if I should be dead or alive...All Rights Reserved

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Tom Daley: Mr. Perfect

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