An arts enthusiast, a strategist and a kooky, Natasha Rose.
I'm 16, turning 17 year old, and I'm still waiting for certain body parts to grow. I know, I possessed a distinctive traits that some may found rather entertaining, or absurd. But one trait that stands out the most, that nobody would've guess I own such traits is that, I'm a hopeless romantic - a pathetic one.
I'm a hopeless romantic, and I'm not proud of it one bit. I wouldn't admit it out loud that I am but, I know and cannot deny the fact that, I am indeed. I love reading novels on love and romance. I never had a boyfriend, and I don’t plan on having one yet too soon. I hate boys because of a certain scenario, but sometimes I do crave for their attention. Not from all of them of course, but from a certain someone.
From a certain someone, who happens to live a house away from my parents.
But of course, being possessed with vacuous traits does have it's favorable and unfavorable factors - majority consisting of, unfavorable of course. Also, it ain't easy having a life that kept constantly bringing you down all the time.
This story, or book revolves around my world. It took me quite some time to build some courage to write this, as I’m not one to express my feelings or even share my day with anyone. What you’re about to read, is a story no one, I meant no one ever, know about. The secrets I’ve held in my heart, the feelings, the emotions, are soon to be exposed, leaving me naked and hopefully, feeling free.
This, is my story.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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