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Still Trying [phan/boyxboy]

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He always felt like nothing. Just another person among seven billion others. 

"I am useless. The world would be better without me."

He felt as unique as a tree - seen everyday, gone everyday.

"I'm just another burden; the difference in society, the thing that makes it unbalanced. Why would you stay with me?"

"Because sometimes, difference is beautiful."

For a sakura tree is out of the ordinary - the wonder only seen once in a long period of time. 

But hey, everything pretty still has a black shadow.All Rights Reserved

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My Everything by phan_senpai

"I will never love anyone. I will never feel the need to say some sappy shit like, 'You are the love of my life. Everything I have and everything I am is yours forever', okay?" ///in which phil is a player who doesn't want to commit and dan is a hopeless romantic///

Break Me (Phan) by MySecretsX

COMPLETE *** In this world, you're marked with black. That's if you have a soulmate, at least. Everyone is destined to cross paths with the one who is meant for them, at least once in their lives. When you and your soulmate meet, you will touch, if only briefly, and the exact area of skin you touch with the other turns from black to white, with streaks of blue, purple, yellow, all marbled in with each other. Daniel Howell is well known in town. People cross the street if they're approaching him and newcomers to the neighborhood are warned about his presence. Exactly like the Lester's were. But Phil Lester has other ideas, he saw the pain within the boy, how bad can he really be? (A story about abuse, self-destruction, but ultimately, love. Please read safe.)

Things Change by wwhateverdudee

Dan's life always seemed to stay the same. As if it was on loop. Nothing interesting happened. Nothing made him happy. Everything was lifeless to Dan. However, one dark haired boy was going to change everything. -TRIGGER WARNING- Abuse Depression Anxiety Self harm Eating Disorders

Shooting Stars ✹ Phan by klutzyvegetarian7

In the perspective of Phil Lester (1-10) In the perspective of Dan Howell (11-20) ✹ You wouldn't think someone with such deep and sweet brown eyes would turn out to be so violent to love. I didn't believe it when he first smiled at me, but my perception of him changed the moment he started removing my belt. ✹ EXTREME MATURE CONTENT ✹ MATURE AUDIENCES ONLY ✹ If you are triggered by or sensitive to any of the following things, read with caution... -self harm -suicide attempts -domestic violence -rape -alcoholism -masochism (sexual desire with submission to cruelty or violence)

The Eye of the Beholder /Phan>•</ by namelessswashere

"You can't see the color of your soulmates eyes, before you see your soulmate first." She said, a smile tugging at her lips. "But why?" He asked, wondering why the sky and ocean were always gray, why a gray and yellow crayon made green, why this "blue" was so foreign to him. Why couldn't he get to see the shine of the sapphire, navy, of all its glory. Why he wouldn't get to taste the pure azure of the blueberry. He wondered why all he saw when he looked at the midnight blue was gray. A boring, simple, gray. "Well," she said, "I suppose that would ruin the surprise." "But what if I never find them?" ------------------------------------------------------ The love story between the gray of Dan Howell's world and the bright blue of Phil Lester's eyes, and how their love is stronger than anyone imagined. Ranked 13 in Dan and Phil fan fiction C O M P L E T E D

discontinued // my winged warrior // phan by thattumblrchick

"It's like you're a whole new person when you forget to be afraid. And that person you become, he's free." ☾❀☽ When Phil was ten, he got lost in the woods, and was found by a strange winged boy with a secret that not everyone could see. The pair fell in love, only to have their memories of each other stolen away from them forever. Years later, the short and shy Phil Lester meets the tall and sarcastic Dan Howell who wears a flower in his hair and seems to be hiding something. For a reason that neither of them can explain, they are drawn to each other. {This fanfiction is relatively safe} NO suicide NO depression NO self harm NO eating disorders It does have some minor triggers, including bullying, and slight anxiety. Message me if you need specifics, and I'll let you know. Stay safe.

pretend (phan) by audrat

Dan Howell was the typical spoiled, rich boy with butlers driving him to operas and maids making him nachos for breakfast. Phil Lester, however, was the opposite. Barely any money and deadbeat parents, he lives in a bad neighborhood in a gross apartment with cat hair covering the carpet and an odd roommate. And then Dan's parents decide he needs to love someone rather than himself, and when Phil shows up at his mansion steps, Dan's parents grow fond of him- so much that the two are exchanging rings and Phil is moving in with his new spouse. They tell Dan he should give it a few months, to be patient, and if he still doesn't like him then they'll sign the divorce papers and call it quits. Marriage isn't perfect, right? Well this one is the exact example. But they could always pretend.

The Super Amazing Saturn Project (phan fiction) (complete) by phanwhitets

so basically if you've stumbled across this story i must warn you of suicide, self-harm, abuse, alcohol, language, and sex ;) so Phil gets assigned a new project for his astronomy class and instantly likes dan. Although his constant insecurities and troubled memories always cause him to believe that dan could never love him. Dan, though, has fallen for this sad boy and also believes that Phil couldn't like him back. then sad things happen, happy things happen, blah blah blah read it to find out if your reading it, i declare you awesome

Danny's Girl (Phan) by SmolSalmon

I've read a bunch of phan, so why not write one? Dan Howell's life couldn't be any better at the moment. He has met the most beautiful, charming, kind girl he could ever imagine, and she loves him back. Everything is perfect... but not for Phil. Phil Lester has always been in love with Dan since the first moment he first met him, but now Phil's heart is crushed. He has some suspicions of Dan's girlfriend, but Dan just brushes it off, ignoring Phil completely. Unfortunately, Phil's bad feelings may be true... Sexual content, self harm, language, and domestic abuse warning. Also, I'm American, so if I get anything wrong, please tell me. ••• Update: This is very old (not really that old) writing! It's cringy as hell, and I apologize in advance. I have fixed a few errors, so if it seems slightly different than it was before, that's why.

Just Friends ✹ Phan by klutzyvegetarian7

I'm straight. I have always been straight. My fans like to ship me with my best friend and roommate, Philip Lester.... But we're only friends. We've lived together for a couple of years and ever since we first met, our fans have been trending "Phan" all over social media. I love Phil... But as a friend.....Only as a friend. We're just friends.

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My Everything

"I will never love anyone. I will never feel the need to say some sappy shit like, 'You are the love of my life. Everything I have and everything I am is yours forever', okay?" ///in which phil is a player who doesn't want to commit and dan is a hopeless romantic///