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Still Trying [phan/boyxboy]

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Time 1h 42m

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He always felt like nothing. Just another person among seven billion others. 

"I am useless. The world would be better without me."

He felt as unique as a tree - seen everyday, gone everyday.

"I'm just another burden; the difference in society, the thing that makes it unbalanced. Why would you stay with me?"

"Because sometimes, difference is beautiful."

For a sakura tree is out of the ordinary - the wonder only seen once in a long period of time. 

But hey, everything pretty still has a black shadow.All Rights Reserved

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discontinued // my winged warrior // phan by thattumblrchick

"It's like you're a whole new person when you forget to be afraid. And that person you become, he's free." ☾❀☽ When Phil was ten, he got lost in the woods, and was found by a strange winged boy with a secret that not everyone could see. The pair fell in love, only to have their memories of each other stolen away from them forever. Years later, the short and shy Phil Lester meets the tall and sarcastic Dan Howell who wears a flower in his hair and seems to be hiding something. For a reason that neither of them can explain, they are drawn to each other. {This fanfiction is relatively safe} NO suicide NO depression NO self harm NO eating disorders It does have some minor triggers, including bullying, and slight anxiety. Message me if you need specifics, and I'll let you know. Stay safe.

The Book of Lies || Phan [[COMPLETED]] by DansPlacenta

After Dan Howell dies at the tragically young age of 26, he is greeted by death with a book. A book of every lie that anyone had ever told him. This seems like harmless fun but as he nears the end, he realized everything isn't as it seemed in life with his best friend, Phil Lester. Ship: Phan, Kickthesticks Genre: fluff/angst (no smut) Trigger Warnings: male X male, major character death, suicide, self harm, existencial questions, depression, abuse, torture situations, substance abuse and panic attacks. (i want all of you to be safe and happy whilst reading this so if you are triggered by any of these please don't read)

ill // phan au by endlesss-

"you kind of remind me of stars; you only shine at night when no one is watching." (lower case intended // trigger warning)

Break Me (Phan) by MySecretsX

COMPLETE *** In this world, you're marked with black. That's if you have a soulmate, at least. Everyone is destined to cross paths with the one who is meant for them, at least once in their lives. When you and your soulmate meet, you will touch, if only briefly, and the exact area of skin you touch with the other turns from black to white, with streaks of blue, purple, yellow, all marbled in with each other. Daniel Howell is well known in town. People cross the street if they're approaching him and newcomers to the neighborhood are warned about his presence. Exactly like the Lester's were. But Phil Lester has other ideas, he saw the pain within the boy, how bad can he really be? (A story about abuse, self-destruction, but ultimately, love. Please read safe.)

Things Change by wwhateverdudee

Dan's life always seemed to stay the same. As if it was on loop. Nothing interesting happened. Nothing made him happy. Everything was lifeless to Dan. However, one dark haired boy was going to change everything. -TRIGGER WARNING- Abuse Depression Anxiety Self harm Eating Disorders

Midnight || Phan {Complete} by somesortofuser

Daniel Howell and Phil Lester have gone through a lot together. ***TRIGGER WARNING- SELF HARM / SUICIDE ATTEMPTS / DEPRESSION / HOMOSEXUALITY /SAD/ANGST***

The Super Amazing Saturn Project (phan fiction) (complete) by phanwhitets

so basically if you've stumbled across this story i must warn you of suicide, self-harm, abuse, alcohol, language, and sex ;) so Phil gets assigned a new project for his astronomy class and instantly likes dan. Although his constant insecurities and troubled memories always cause him to believe that dan could never love him. Dan, though, has fallen for this sad boy and also believes that Phil couldn't like him back. then sad things happen, happy things happen, blah blah blah read it to find out if your reading it, i declare you awesome

Shooting Stars ✹ Phan by klutzyvegetarian7

In the perspective of Phil Lester (1-10) In the perspective of Dan Howell (11-20) ✹ You wouldn't think someone with such deep and sweet brown eyes would turn out to be so violent to love. I didn't believe it when he first smiled at me, but my perception of him changed the moment he started removing my belt. ✹ EXTREME MATURE CONTENT ✹ MATURE AUDIENCES ONLY ✹ If you are triggered by or sensitive to any of the following things, read with caution... -self harm -suicide attempts -domestic violence -rape -alcoholism -masochism (sexual desire with submission to cruelty or violence)

anathema ; phan by rosespjm

{edited} "won't you go to someone else's sleep? won't you go to someone else's head? haven't you taken enough from me? won't you torture someone else's sleep?" TW : depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, actual suicide attempt. read at your own risk.

✓ | soulmates are stupid ☆ phan by enemyfires

𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐩𝐢𝐝. | ❝ i'm sick of losing soulmates, so where do we begin? ❞ → in a world with soulmates, dan doesn't have one. until he hears a voice out of the blue. (phil lester/daniel howell) (© enemyfires 2016) accomplishments: 35 in amazingphil 11/12/20 | 31 in danisnotonfire 11/12/20

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