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If You Loved Me, Why'd You Leave Me?
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winchestersphan
Complete, First published Jul 21, 2015
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'Phil studied me closely, biting on his bottom lip until straightening up and wiping his eyes. "Sometimes the person we would take a bullet for, is behind the trigger."'

Dan Howell is dying. With only a few week left to live, Dan has fallen deep into the pits of hopelessness and despair, but when the stranger that Dan remembers as a child passes by his whole world changes and suddenly life doesn't seem as dull as he thought.
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