If You Loved Me, Why'd You Leave Me?
winchestersphan
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  • Reads 746
  • Votes 55
  • Parts 12
  • Time 1h 38m
winchestersphan
Complete, First published Jul 21, 2015
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'Phil studied me closely, biting on his bottom lip until straightening up and wiping his eyes. "Sometimes the person we would take a bullet for, is behind the trigger."'

Dan Howell is dying. With only a few week left to live, Dan has fallen deep into the pits of hopelessness and despair, but when the stranger that Dan remembers as a child passes by his whole world changes and suddenly life doesn't seem as dull as he thought.
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He's coming for me, to exploit me. He's learned my secrets and now he's coming. My lungs are filling with toxic air and can't seem to work, my legs feeling as if they are being stabbed. My vision is blurry and I'm slowing. No, he's going to catch me. He can't, I can't let him. He reaches me and catches me in a deadly grip, where I fall to the ground and everything is black. Where my lungs stop my heart, and the violins and cellos are finished with a fading legato bow. WARNINGS/TRIGGERS- Anxiety/Anxiety Attacks, Depression, Smut, Crude Language, Gay Slurs, violence/abuse, gay in general, gore (ish not really), character death. PLEASE DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE TRIGGERED BY ANY OF THESE, PLEASE STAY SAFE ^-^

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