Poems of Goodbye

There's a girl in this world.
She would live in the shadows holding on to promises and whispers.
This girl was popular in the world that mattered to her. She moved half way through the year.
After Three Months.
That girl was okay until she grew up. She struggled being the smartest always thinking. So she stopped. Soon the sun went behind the clouds. The features she was able to hide in the darkness were visible when there's nowhere to hide. She realized that it wasn't when people talked behind her back that hurt it was when they were nice to her and turn around and weren't.
She struggled for Three Months.
Because of her trouble she went to summer school met someone for three weeks he put a smile on her face, through hugs, jokes, and words. For three weeks she was happy. But they rushed and she was hurt while with him......
For Three Months.
Soon her anxiety, sleep disorder, fear, stomach ache (stress of getting hurt), thoughts, fake smiles, and worry all came back and didn't leave. (These were with and without) This girl is beautiful. She shines bright but doesn't know, nor feel special. She is a diamond in a sea of coal but she feels like a rock in the marianas trench. She's learned the hard way don't trust anyone, because everyone can hurt you and easily believe it's your fault.
She found friends through this and one was always there for her while the others said they were. It never felt like it. She thought it was just that she is so fragile or is over reacting. She thought friendship meant sacrifice and if that meant have the laughs on you no problem.
Until that Three Month mark.
She kept her mouth shut to afraid of saying the wrong thing so she just laughed along to the others. Whenever she spoke around them all they seemed to like to say in response is ," NO! Just no!" So she never spoke just laughed and swallowed everything down with her drink. All the joke reminding her of her painful past and other things people would say aft