I'm a Lost Cause
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Last published Sat, Oct 3, 2015
~Can nobody Hear Me?
I've got a lot that's on my mind...
I cannot breathe,
Can you hear it too?~
Wayne Sermon has been there for his best friend Dan Reynolds since the first time he got a bad feeling that something wasn't right. This is the second full year that Dan has considered himself to be depressed, and he doesn't know how much longer he can take it.
•WARNING: This story is rated Mature due to cursing, violence, trigger warnings, and other Mature themes•
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