Feeling alone and feeling like no one is there to help you find your way out. everyone else is blaming you so your soul feels like it should blame you too so then you start to blame yourself
As you've found yourself alone in life, you found you are better fighting alone. As your own weapon/mister you share nothing. Your own apartment. Classes are lonely. After a while, people think it's funny to bully you. Will they push you to edge of life it's self? Maybe it's the end after all! No matter what you do, could it lead you to the beginning of the end for you while helping the fight with a Kishin?
Let's hope it all goes right now.