Angry Butterflies

A year in and you would think I'm head over heels for my boyfriend
But it's the complete opposite.
What happened?
My guess is as good as yours.
You see, after a while you start to see the real side of people
Their true colors, abilities, habits, strengths, weaknesses...
Everything.
And when that day comes, everything changes.
What used to be the lips you long for at night
are now the lips you no longer wish to kiss
The connection that was once there,
The spark,
The butterflies,
The energy,
The daydreaming,
Summer nights,
Long walks,
The memories,
The real you,
It's gone.
What used to be butterflies in my stomach
Is now anger almost every time I see you.
The stress to remain in a relationship with you
It's becoming too overwhelming..
overbearing,
stressful,
Unhealthy.
Yet, I remain.