It felt like I had been shot in the side. I fell to my knees holding my side. I closed my eyes shut as the tears welled up in them. It was so awful darkness, screaming, fire, and smoke. I heard shouting it sounded far off. “Wake up, wake up! Snowflake can you hear me? Snowflake!” I knew it was Drench. But I didn’t want to get up. I wanted to die. My life was awful I just wanted to die!