I realized

Grell had realized he was a he and not a she Grell had also realized that no one would ever love him.

He had come to this conclusion when someone literaly beat the idea into poor Grell. The one who did it was the one who said that he loved Grell.

Loved Grell yet beat him and hurt him tried to make Grell realize he was a he and not a she that he was gay that he was unlovable

William Spears

The last name that William had was most fitting for he was like a speared thorn going through Grell's already broken

Heart