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well, it's a story about my boring life :/ a story about a MiddleEast girl although we are not all the same (I mean the middleEasteren people we have our differences but in the same time we have a lot of things in common) and well it's a story about a Muslim girl ( please I'm not here to hate someone or for someone to hate me so please just respect my religion and I will respect yours)
I'm telling you all of that because if you decided to read this story (amm I can't call it a story it's more of a diary a place to vent out ) you should know that you will read about weird habits because you are going to read about my culture
so yeah to be honest I'm not Expecting anyone to read it but yeah if you are going to read it then be ready because you are going to enter a very dangerously boring life and well you will enter my brain it's a pretty dark and messy place here :/ yeah one more thing all the names in the story are not real I didn't use the real name for two reasons 1) it will be hard for anyone to read it (that's id someone decided to do so 2) I have friends in watt pad and I don't want them to know it's me
yeah one more thing I chose this name for the story and I know it's an ED Sheeran song but yeah i can't find a better name than that to be title to my story and well I'm a big fan of ED too :D
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