if I ever love again

I-I need love I cant, take this anymore. *sighs* I love him and he doesn't love me . *crying* he cant just leave me here alone, on this cold ground we call life. if I cant him I shouldn't live. *whimpers*
{ june 5th 2013}
I woke up for school the next morning. I cried myself asleep again. I just cant stand the fact he left this world! FOR WHAT! I scream in my mind as I make eggs. I sigh and just think about the positives but there is none. I hear a knock at my door its currently 9:30am. I think to myself whos here at this time of day? I go and open the door. theres a creepy old man standing at my door. "hello" I say as calmly as possible. "are you jane wolf" the man says looking at me. I look at him confunsed and respond with "who do you know my name" im starting to get seriose how the hell does this guy know my name! I start to panick he doesnt respond I slam the door and hurry and lock it. im freaked out now how does this guys find my apartment and know my name ! I didn't go to school that day I was to freaked out to leave my house , what if he followed me