Make the pain disappear

People say loosing family is the worst thing that could happen, some say best friends, others say being kidnapped.

Or stuff along those lines.

When you say "I hate my life", and then people say you got it easy, others are fighting for theirs. I only wish I was lucky enough to be fighting for mine. Maybe then I could choose my fait.

I used to want to feel the pain, the heart ache, and loss. I suppose you could say that I'm just one of those girls. Though, now I just want someone that would mean it when they say "i love you." And for me to mean it too. Though, now I have all those things, the good, the bad. Now I just want it to end.

Not the toughness or bad parts.

My life.

Before I drag all of one direction down with me. To hell. To my world. To behind the curtains of reality.

I just want someone to make all the pain disappear.

Preview:

As I dragged the blade across my arm, I felt a massive rush of relief. All the horrible thoughts that had been whirling around in my head seemed to disappear for a few seconds- a few precious, blissful seconds. But then they came crashing back, just as bad as they'd been before.

It all ended to quickly. Right then Harry came barging through my door. Causing the red blood to miss the sink, and drop onto the snowy white bathroom mat. Seconds later Niall, Zayn, Liam and Louis came pushing through the frame.