World beyond this World!

Every morning I wake us and follow the same routine till I go to bed often wondering within myself

"is this all what life has to offer? Following the same routine over and over. Fooling myself to get through yet another day, adding another day to my life span for some reason. Faking what I feel so that I won't feel judged by some unimportant person. suppressing all potential cos THEY don't understand"

but sometimes the stubborn CHILD within me wakes up says "NOT TODAY! FUCK WHAT THEY WILL THINK ABOUT YOU! FUCK ALL THE OBLIGATIONS FORCED ON ME BY PEOPLE I DON'T EVEN REMEMBER"
Then I start thinking about this little world within this world where I like to think about "COOL THINGS" such as "will I survive a night in the woods" or "how am I gonna survive a free fall from an airplane ?"
"can I tame a freaking wild lion without getting killed"?
Then I drift even more on existential questions such as " who the fuck am I?"
"why i was build the way i look?(of course I know that I am hum"