Heart for Hate
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Last published Mon, Feb 17, 2014
One car crash. One murder. One fire. That’s all it took to ruin my life. I often ask myself why do I need to suffer further? Why should I put up with all this anymore? What’s left for me on this disgusting, fucked up Earth? Because surely I'm damned to hell or what anyone calls it these days. I have been through so much and I am what any normal person would call broken. I don't have a mother nor father anymore and the one person that kept me sane during those depressed months where I wasn't able to get out of bed and face the next day is also gone. So in this life, what do I care? I haven't got anything to lose. It's all been forced out of my grasp already. I've decided that the best course of path is to just stay here in this darkness and let my body rot. Bring it on God. See if you can take anything away from me now.
This is the first book of the Locetsun Trilogy. Please enjoy.
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I woke to a sudden breeze invading the warmth from the heavy blanket that caressed my skin. Here, alone with my thoughts, the still, calm quiet in the atmosphere is almost painful. I feel suffocated in the clingy, static air. In quiet, still moments like these, I can almost feel Him. I don't know who "Him" is, but I can feel his presence. It's almost calming, especially on fearful, anxiety fueled nights. Usually, he was the strongest when I had a nightmare. The nightmares weren't as common now, but, right after everything happened, I was having them every night. I'd wake up and swear I was drenched in blood, my eyes and lips sticky, my nose filled with the smell of iron and fuel. After everything, that's when Him first came. From there, he just never left. I can usually sense when Him is near. Today, though, his presence is stronger. I can almost feel Him next to me, weighing down the mattress. Some nights, I roll over and imagine how he looks, envision his smile or the sparkle in his eyes. He's never there and I'm left clutching to the thought that he exists, staring into empty air. Tonight, though, I swear I can reach out and touch him. Extending my hand gently, I sweep my hand out into the darkness and meet an inexplicable warmth. A scream rips from my lungs as hands cover my face and two icy blue eyes stare back at me, daring me to speak again. A soft cloth caressed my nose and mouth before I felt myself fade into bed. All Rights Reserved. Contains graphic descriptions of violence and assault. Contains battle scene.
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