"any time I resisted, she threatened to tell Phil that I was still in love with him. because I was. and I am. but he can't know, because he's all I have left. he's what I live for. and I can't lose him. I guess that's the problem with love. it's the thing that makes you strongest, it can beat out any fear except for the fear of loss" I PROMISE IT GETS BETTER AFTER THE FIRST LIKE 8 CHAPTERS THE EARLY ONES ARE REALLY SHIT [because I wrote it on the airplane back to the UK] BUT I PROMISE IT GETS BETTER AIGHT Ye TRIGGER WARNING: abuse, suicidality, drug useAll Rights Reserved