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Random darkness

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Reads 9,179
Votes 935
Parts 114
Time 1h 14m

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abuse bullying childpornography lonliness selfhatred selfinjury sexualabuse violence

*this story is very descriptive and may be considered triggering. Be in a safe frame of mind when reading*

Thought wanderings of a depressed mess...No real rhyme or reason..insights about death, suicide, self injury, self hate,bullying, abuse. Allot of what if's, if only, maybe's...the emotional rollercoaster that goes with sexual abuse, physical abuse,.neglect, addictions,  mental health issues, hospitalizations and family hatred.
As mainly seen thru the eyes of Adalaine Marie(I am female!! trapped in a boys body) this is not just her story it's also her past. Adalaine, feels she is a horrid slut, garbage of no use to anyone but a quick fuck, a whore, not wanted by anyone but those who abused her so bad.
*PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION AS THIS IS TRIGGERING AND GRAPHIC*All Rights Reserved

abuse bullying childpornography lonliness selfhatred selfinjury sexualabuse violence

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The Overshared And Underappreciated Mind Of A Hopeless Romantic by thrillsgum

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Unwritten Pages by MoonlightSanity

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Inevitable Destruction

Dazai angst I felt like writing ACTUAL WRITING WILL BE POSTED BY APRIL 30TH !PLEASE MIND THE TW'S THIS IS INCREDIBLY HEAVY! Child endangerment Child abuse Hypothermia Starvation/Descriptions of intense hunger Suicidal thoughts/Ideation Implications of non consensual medical drug usage Self harm Blood Gun/Blades Thoughts/Urges to hurt others (?) Dehumanization Depression Self neglect Suicide/Attempt (VERY descriptive) Panic attack descriptions Slight religious imagery (?) Descriptions of gore/injury Brief mention of torture Law breaking/reckless driving (?) Emotional suppression (?) Drastic mood swings/changes Mentioned character death Playlist on first part and taking suggestions