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Random darkness

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Reads 9,314
Votes 935
Parts 114
Time 1h 14m

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abuse bullying childpornography lonliness selfhatred selfinjury sexualabuse violence

*this story is very descriptive and may be considered triggering. Be in a safe frame of mind when reading*

Thought wanderings of a depressed mess...No real rhyme or reason..insights about death, suicide, self injury, self hate,bullying, abuse. Allot of what if's, if only, maybe's...the emotional rollercoaster that goes with sexual abuse, physical abuse,.neglect, addictions,  mental health issues, hospitalizations and family hatred.
As mainly seen thru the eyes of Adalaine Marie(I am female!! trapped in a boys body) this is not just her story it's also her past. Adalaine, feels she is a horrid slut, garbage of no use to anyone but a quick fuck, a whore, not wanted by anyone but those who abused her so bad.
*PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION AS THIS IS TRIGGERING AND GRAPHIC*All Rights Reserved

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Unwritten Pages by MoonlightSanity

(COMPLETED) Winterlyn (Winter) Evaline Lawly is the school's biggest...no one. She's not noticed anywhere. She's not loud, she's not a teacher's pet. She's not popular, and she's not skinny nor fat. Winter is just...herself. But nobody notices her. No one knows that she exists. She's just another regular kid that drags themselves to high school everyday. Not one of those popular kids. Not a nerd either. What happens...when she commits suicide? Police and most classmates are unsure why she would want to kill herself. For one thing, she was not clinically depressed. She didn't have bullies. No one made fun of her. But as her journal falls into the hands of one of her friends, he realizes that Winter's world may have been much darker than he realized. In Unwritten Pages, dive right into the pages of Winter's final year, her life, her friends, and the dark reason why she was driven towards death. ~NaNoWriMo 2011 *Highly unedited* WARNING: Somewhat poorly written. Plot holes, mistakes, unrealistic, tedious (drones/boring). READ AT OWN RISK Extra notes: There is some slut-bashing, which I am at this time very ashamed of it. Do not read it if you do tolerate like slut-bashing. I apologize for this. I was beginning high school when I wrote this. Not that I'm saying my age excuses my previous behaviour, but I was very unaware of this at the time. For those who don't mind slut-bashing, you should mind! It's an incredibly hurtful thing to do and is very misogynistic (look it up if you need to). We live in a patriarch society, and women should not be slut-bashing each other just because of promiscuity. Here's some food for thought: When men do it, how come they're seen as amazing and desirable and are given a kind of 'award' and respect from everyone else around them, but when women are promiscuous, they only get hatred from other people? What someone does in the bedroom is no one's business but them and their partner, and no one should be put down for that.

Wronged by kendallswrites

E-BOOK AND PAPERBACK AVAILABLE ON AMAZON NOW!! - - - MATURE AUDIENCES ONLY - - - When you're born, you are born with an engraving tattooed upon your skin. It is given to you, to determine what man or woman should be your lover. Who should be with you forever once you find them. If you find them. It's a mark that is only half-finished, the other half left on your soulmate's body. Heat emerges on the area of your mark when they're near, and cold grows the farther you are apart. For Anna Cardale, her shoulder is covered in what looks to be half of a wing. A beautiful red and delicate wing. She's quiet, stoic, and doesn't let anyone in. And she certainly doesn't care for a "soulmate" ever since escaping a terrifying past life. But when she moves to a new town and to a new school with a new care home family, her skin heats up. She feels her stomach churn in unnerved expression. It's as if something is yearning to pull her closer. And then she sees him. For it wasn't something that pulled her in. It was someone. And just like her, demons are living deep inside of his soul. Dreaded demons that keep him company. Can she heal him? Or is the other way around? Or perhaps the demons are always the ones who prevail... - - - "I'm sad that this wonderful book is coming to an end. 😢" - LlexieD "This book was phenomenal! I'm in such wow of it." - singingchoirfreak "AHH IM CRYING THIS IS AMAZING 1000/10 YES BITCHH" - BeautyInTheBlackRose - - -

The Overshared And Underappreciated Mind Of A Hopeless Romantic by thrillsgum

Writing has always been a secret indulgence. It's something I keep to myself most days and it will continue to be something I share with very few people. Bound in these flimsy plastic rings is a brief rundown of me. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Nothing in here is terribly out of the ordinary for a teen girl who grew up before she was supposed to. A girl whose life was never hers to live. A lot of the time, I never know what's going on. I find it helpful to write down what I don't understand to try and make sense of the world around me. Writing these pieces has helped me find peace in my life. This class has proven more cathartic than I thought. That being said, there are some topics that can be sensitive here. I've starred the titles that could be triggering for some in the table of contents. If you are bothered by mentions of: abuse, self harm, or talks about mental health and illnesses, I suggest avoiding the starred titles. Otherwise, I hope you enjoy the ooey-gooey and heartfelt pieces I have pumped out of my system

Inevitable Destruction by Sanna_is_alone

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It Wasn't Love ✔️ by depressedn0nce

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broken wings by 1just2for3you

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Falling Apart by 1_Will_3

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Dear Bully by ariana-word

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Unwritten Pages

(COMPLETED) Winterlyn (Winter) Evaline Lawly is the school's biggest...no one. She's not noticed anywhere. She's not loud, she's not a teacher's pet. She's not popular, and she's not skinny nor fat. Winter is just...herself. But nobody notices her. No one knows that she exists. She's just another regular kid that drags themselves to high school everyday. Not one of those popular kids. Not a nerd either. What happens...when she commits suicide? Police and most classmates are unsure why she would want to kill herself. For one thing, she was not clinically depressed. She didn't have bullies. No one made fun of her. But as her journal falls into the hands of one of her friends, he realizes that Winter's world may have been much darker than he realized. In Unwritten Pages, dive right into the pages of Winter's final year, her life, her friends, and the dark reason why she was driven towards death. ~NaNoWriMo 2011 Highly unedited WARNING: Somewhat poorly written. Plot holes, mistakes, unrealistic, tedious (drones/boring). READ AT OWN RISK Extra notes: There is some slut-bashing, which I am at this time very ashamed of it. Do not read it if you do tolerate like slut-bashing. I apologize for this. I was beginning high school when I wrote this. Not that I'm saying my age excuses my previous behaviour, but I was very unaware of this at the time. For those who don't mind slut-bashing, you should mind! It's an incredibly hurtful thing to do and is very misogynistic (look it up if you need to). We live in a patriarch society, and women should not be slut-bashing each other just because of promiscuity. Here's some food for thought: When men do it, how come they're seen as amazing and desirable and are given a kind of 'award' and respect from everyone else around them, but when women are promiscuous, they only get hatred from other people? What someone does in the bedroom is no one's business but them and their partner, and no one should be put down for that.